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Fujimiya Aya

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[23 Jul 2004|02:17pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

This journal has been neglected greatly, although I don't really care. I still find it rather useless and a waste of time.

Nothing 'exciting' or interesting has been going on, and it's actually less loud and hectic. I've haven't seen Yohji or Omi in awhile, but they're probably off doing ...whatever they do.

Ken has rendered me utterly speechless twice in one day, which I can't recall happening before. He's not one who would shock another to such an extent, nor shock me. Really. His personality is a bit interesting. I've grown use to, and dare I say, somewhat fond of his actions now.

I do wonder if Sakura is doing good. I'm sorry to say, but I doubt I'll ever be able to trust Schuldig in company with her.

4; black angel

[07 Mar 2004|04:05pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Joy, Kudou is back. From America. How surprising. He has not changed a bit since I last saw him. Very stubborn, indeed. He's been staying with American girls for the past months. I really wouldn't mind if he went back there, in fact, I'd rather enjoy that.

I'm glad to hear that you finally told him, Omi.

Yet to have seen Ken for a bit, wonder, is he still sick? I should know, though, I don't. I'll find out.

Great, Kudou broke the TV. The dumbass. He's going to pay for that.

8; black angel

[17 Feb 2004|05:12pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Valentine's Day seems of such a waste for me, not very joyful, either. It seems as though Kritiker is apparently plotting to turn each of us, Ken, Omi, Yohji, and myself, against each other. I've been told that they temporarily shut down Weiss because of the afct that we've been becoming 'close'. Needless to say, I don't see the point of it all. They really have no clue how to deal with it.

Ken's sick. He went out in the rain yesterday when he was already sick, and now he's abosolutely .. Though, I do feel a bit bad. It seems as though I said something to make him sad.

Kudou seems like he ran off with a woman, or he died. I've yet to seen him for months.

3; black angel

[20 Jan 2004|05:02pm]
[ mood | curious ]

Obviously my personality is somehow ' motherly ', if you will. I have yet to see how this is possible. I am not Omi's mother, nor Ken is his father. But I am male, so I am technically more father-like. Ken has pointed out that it has, indeed, triggered something in my anger status, which so to say is quite true.

No, I was not going to kill you, Tsukiyono. I was merely .. ' warning ' you, so to say. Obviously, you thought otherwise. I would have attempted to if you had gone any further with those conversations, though I doubt it. Even though, I still would like to hear what you thought Ken and I were talking about the other day. I have an idea. Also, I don't appreciate being the center of attention for your ' perverted ' jokes, really.

Apparently things are starting to make somewhat of sense to me. Hidaka & I have developed a ' relationship ', so to say. Though, it's really complicated to see what the difference is between us as of yet. We make more physical contact [ooc: more like Ken groping him. ^^;;] and talk a reasonable amount more, but it hasn't changed for the most part. I'm not complaining, though. It is quite enjoyable to see a bit of a change. I'd rather have our relationship stay as it is, instead of arguing constantly. But who would have thought it would have developed from hatred to .. that? I really did not. I'm not the one to date, nor date that particular gender either. But I will not put much thought into it.

black angel

[Filter: Private] [12 Jan 2004|07:08pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I've acting without thinking of the consequences it may bring. It's annoying me, since when did I start becoming emotional? I shouldn't let my guard down, for one moment. However, I have no guilt whatsoever for my actions. I'm not talking about Omi, I'm not that cruel enough to not feel the slightest bit of hurt when I see him cry. But I will not get into that.

I've been becoming more and more close to Hidaka, and frankly, I don't want to have any feelings for him. Yet, I've been becoming attracted to his personality, somehow, it interests me. All he does is ramble on and on about useless things, but I listen. I don't want to. Things have been going too far, I cannot handle these emotions.

I never mentioned about my ' relationship ' ( if you must call it that ) with Ken, but I'm positive that there is something there. I've never seen myself as the ' dating ' type. Let alone someone who is attracted to males. [ooc: -cough- asexual -cough-] But that's beside the point.

The thing is --
I kissed him earlier.

black angel

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